So. It is done. It's over with.
Relief? Defnitely. The weight of my heart feels slightly less, and the whole thing seemed 200 times easier then I stressed about. I mean... the thing was eating away at my heart for basically, the whole week, and I was just so unhappy with it. And it's funny because it probably took more courage doing that then breaking up with a boyfriend of ten months! And I'm... happy? I am in computer lab, wishing I could check the e-mail, right now, listening to some Iron and Wine and typing away with the risk of a whole bunch of 6th graders reading this... but. And I can't believe it. .... wow. So I should probably let Alex know as I said I would, and get on this speech for tonight, but. I feel more like blogging now.
So. I am the biggest geek, and today I feel it. Ha, the fact that I just walked into the bathroom and looked in the mirror at my hair, which I left for school this morning, it being wet and somewhat scrunched into waves... and it is messy. No one, I repeat no one would walk around school with their hair like that, But me... hey. The fact that I spend almost all my spares in this computer lab blogging, reading real long music interviews and listening to music that no one in this school does. The fact that I sit at the coffee shop alone, studying or doing homework... and the fact that I actually do my homework, that is pretty geeky, or so someone said to me todays. The fact that I enjoy coloring little kids coloring books and swings and defnitely playing spy, and the fact that I yell at little kids (no worries.. only junior high ones) if they are in my way, and enjoy it. The fact that I was so excited the other day about going to the library, and then leaving the library without about 200 items... among other things. So... what?
But I am done now, because writing in here seems to take the point out of all of this, it feels as if everyone is watching, and well, they proabably are.
I will write tonight, possibly. Good night all
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