Come to Think of It... may this be change?

home.

I think that this weekened was the best thing for me in a long, long time.
I've fallen short of everything I once have been. My last day at work was Thursday. And I don't care? I've fallen short in my relationship with God... not like it once was. I've completely became bored of everything that once interested me. I've lost friendships with people I was once friends with. I turned down grad escort dates, and oppertunties for after Colorado and I don't care?

Sigh. The thing is I do care. But the action in caring I have not yet grabbed ahold of. Im getting closer through... I really am.

My regrets about this weekend is that it wasen't much about Easter itself. Skipping such an important holiday like that sets itself up for a different kind of year. BUT things happened on their own. Two cousins I haven't seen in a couple of years due to a divorce, where they have refused to stop coming to see their dad (my uncle) came for an afternoon to share in their dad's birthday celebrations, as well as my Oma's (grandma) 75th.
The whole weekened we were blessed with +20s weather. Also, my aunt and uncle and cousin, Kris, in whom is a good friend and lots of fun happened to get time off and came out from Kelowna which was good. We mostly just hung around home and took lots of walks down to the river and the bridge nearby... the water is really high. On the way there we saw farms flooded, and the only escape be a speedboat or a canoe. Roads washed over and closed. It was really sad... and made me even more glad to live in the place i live, although I defnitely like to complain/ ridicule it alot. We also went to the Royal Crowne Revolving Resturant... which is kind of a tradition, but a special one. And the Forks. And i got some fabulous new Value Village shoes. And it was SO good to see my Oma and Opa since I haven't seen them since my last last Christmas. or something. And my Aunt offered a place of residence for my schooling years... Kelowna? It's alot. There is just alot to be thankful for.

This week I plan on not much. Well.. some. BUT honestly give me call or something if you bored or in need of a person to accompany you on a walk (its so nice) or for a coffee for conversation, etc.
AND Bright Eyes= here= July! Going?! I must. I will KILL for a ticket.

(on iPod: Cat Power (always), Neko Case, The Elected (I loved that concert), Minus the Bear, Acceptance, Wolf Parade, SUFJAN STEVENS)