all i want right now, is everything that you would never want for me. i don't think that has to do with what you needed, either. because i think we correspond on this matter.

sometimes i'm looking out the window at all the nonexistent lights, and other times i walk between the swarm of people and the noise, but i don't ever forget. i will miss the time we shook hands and said goodbye. i will miss it because i think that will be the only time that things will be real for us.

im looking for all the wrong things. im looking for all the things that seem to go against what reality has set out for me.

sometimes im looking out the window at all the nonexistent buildings, and walking between the swarms of people and realize that life couldn't work any other way. And I don't know how it will. But that's how reality has set out for me.